Waiting.

  I looked around the cold, dull room, wondering when I could escape. I had been sitting there for what felt like hours, waiting to walk into the office and talk to the 'doctor'. I knew she wasn't the kind of doctor that took my temperature or gave me cough medicine, she was something else.
  How did my life end up this way? Just a few months ago everything was perfect, then I throw out my lunch a few times and decide I don't want to eat every meal and everyone thinks I've gone crazy. I wasn't crazy. I knew I wasn't.
  All I wanted was to tell that woman I didn't need her help; I was fine. I laid my fragile, bony arm against the wooden chair I was sitting on. No matter what I did, I could not find any comfort as I sat in that dreadful room.
  I didn't want to talk to this stranger, this unknown woman I was forced to see, but I didn't have a choice. My parents said I just had to. But why, why!? There was nothing wrong with me! My mom sat in the chair beside me, filling out paper work with my name written on every page. I was so nervous, vulnerable, scared in that moment. I didn't know what details she was sharing. I didn't know what this woman knew about me. I didn't know what was going to happen to me next.
  My mind was strong, but my body was too weak to fight my fate. I knew I would be dragged into that office and held there as the 'doctor' tried to pry out the words "I have a problem" from my sealed lips. But the thing is, I didn't. At least I thought I didn't.
  I tried hushing the whispering voices in my head.
"You can still lose more weight, you're fine, don't tell her what's really going on."
 At this point, I didn't know what I felt anymore. Was I angry? Anxious? Or just afraid to face the fact that maybe I did need help?
  "Mom, how much longer are we going to wait here? I want to go home. This isn't fair I don't want to be here!" I whined.
  "Sam, we've only been here for 5 minutes! Relax! You need to talk to her, you don't have a choice."
  Only 5 minutes? Why was time moving so slowly? I wanted to dart out of those large, imprisoning doors and make all this end. I needed some time alone, some time to think and calm down. I was not going to share my thoughts with this woman. She couldn't make me speak. I would simply sit there and wait until my hour was over, then come outside and silently endure the car home.
 "Samantha, she's ready to see you now," the overweight woman behind the desk in the washed out, grey shirt said to me.
"Great."

Memoir Ideas

1. Seeing the baby kangaroos in Australia

2. Walking on the beach at night in Hawaii

3. Saying goodbye to my Grandma

4. Driving around in the car listening to music during the summer

5. Going to lunch with my grandparents over the summer

6. Recieving my 16th birthday present

7. Wiz Khalifa concert

8. The day I got my puppy!

9. Sitting in the doctor's office waiting to go into my appt.

10. The day my boyfriend asked me out

Monologues

Characters: Jake & Matt

Scenario: Jake wants to ask out a girl from his school, Olivia, but he doesn't exactly know how and he is nervous, so he asks Matt for advice because Matt is very good at talking to girls and all the girls love him.


JAKE
"Matt, I seriously just don't know what to do. I like this girl a lot, I've never met someone so pretty and down to earth. But what am I supposed to do?! How am I supposed to ask her out on a date? I get so nervous around girls, I'm not as smooth as you. You make it look so easy. I really, really, REALLY want to make this one work out. I don't want to freeze up and embarrass myself like I usually do. Olivia means a lot to me, and she told one of her friends that she likes me too and that she is just waiting for me to make a move. Ugh, I can't stop rambling! I just need some help! This is driving me crazy.  I want this to workout, but I'm so nervous. And what if she doesn't actually like me and it was just a rumor?! AHHH! Please just give me some advice, this can't end badly I'll be crushed."

MATT
"Dude, chill out. If you know she likes you, It's not a big deal. I get so many girls because I am relaxed, not as pent up and worried as you."

JAKE
"Matt, that isn't good advice."

MATT
"Ok listen, Jake. You like this girl a lot, and she clearly likes you too if she was talking about you to you're friends. You always freak out around girls because you fall so hard for them and want everything to go perfectly."

JAKE
"Matt, still not really helping. Just tell me exactly what I need to do to get her to go out with me."

MATT
"Go up to her and ask her a question about, um, I don't know, homework or something. Then once a conversation is started, casually ask her what she's doing this weekend. If you approach it as if you're formally asking her on a date, like 'Hey wanna go out with me saturday night?!' you seem eager and honestly just plain annoying. Be like, 'The new spiderman movie looks really great, I really wanna see it saturday night'

JAKE
"But then how is she supposed to know that I want to go to the movie with her if I don't specifically say, 'Will you go with me?'

MATT
"If she's into you, she'll get the hint! She isn't an idiot! She will probably say 'Oh, well I actually wanted to see that too,' Then casually and calmly say 'You should come with me, it won't be any fun seeing it alone anyways'

JAKE
"But how do you know she'll say yes."

MATT
"BECAUSE SHE LIKES YOU!"

JAKE
"Bro, calm down. Alright, if you say so, I mean I trust you're advice considering every girl in this school is practically drooling over you.

MATT
"There she is, sitting at that table next to the chemistry room. Go sit down with her and start a conversation before her friends come over and the opportunity is gone. You got this, Jake."

JAKE
"Alright, yeah, I got this." he mumbles to himself as he walks towards Olivia